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by Angela Veldman, St. Catharines
Wake up, dress, feed, entertain, teach the children, put the children to sleep, repeat. This is my regular daily routine. My wonderful husband helps with the supper/bedtime/weekend routine. He works long days however, and most of the child rearing is done by me during the day. Spending my days with my children, laughing, learning and playing is something I so enjoy. As I also run a home daycare they are well entertained by the children that spend the day here. However, as my youngest is nearing his second birthday, I’m left feeling overwhelmed with what to do when I am able to go back to work.
I set my post secondary prospects low in my last year of high school. At that time, I was already dating my now husband and knew that having a home full of children was what we both wanted. I graduated with my Early Childhood Education (ECE) two years after high school and worked in the field for a short time. Then we got married and I opened my own home daycare. A couple years later, with thankfulness, we welcomed our first child and were overwhelmed with love. As I held her, I felt that this was what I was meant to do in my life. Chloe grew older all too quickly and we prayed fervently for another child. After some time, it became clear to us that having the big family we always hoped for was not in God’s plan for us. Thankfully, a few years later, we were again blessed with a child, and now our little family feels complete.
My days with my children are rewarding. I enjoy every minute that I can teach them and watch them learn. However, daily I wonder what the plan for me will be when the years of young motherhood are all too quickly over for me.
Being home, cleaning and making meals, getting the kids dressed, feeding them, playing with them – it comes so naturally to me that it does not seem like any work at all.
With being out of the ECE field for as long as I have, I feel incapable and not fit for a job in my field. The days I’m experiencing now, while rewarding and enjoyable, leave me feeling lonely and detached from the outside world. Daily I fall between so many emotions; feeling fulfilled and blessed for the life I’m currently living, while also feeling unaccomplished and inadequate. It’s difficult to fully put words to, but the choice of staying home with more children is not mine, so I’m left asking, what’s next for me?
Angela is a married mom with two children, the owner of a home daycare, and a faithful reader of Parenting Now. We greatly appreciate Angela taking the time to write some of her story.
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